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Post by NAF1138 on Sept 20, 2007 18:34:57 GMT -5
PM'd at the start of Night 2.
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Post by NAF1138 on Oct 2, 2007 0:21:50 GMT -5
Sent in the middle of Night 3:
Captain's Log...
...wait, that's not right. Wrong galaxy....
*shakes confusion from head*
I mean, dear diary,
Every Night it gets harder and harder. More and more I worry about what might have taken over the ship. Are there really Alliance members? Or are what we think are Alliance really just brainwashed members of our own crew? Or maybe what we're searching for is just excellent at telling lies and fibs. Masters of deceit.
More and more thoughts turn to my sister. I hope she's okay. I haven't seen or heard from her for many moons.
Anyway, I must write down what happened toDay. A plethora of new things, claims, and more mysteries than I care for.
What it call ultimately comes down to, however is who do I want to keep an eye on tonight, and make sure they're safe from all harm? I have narrowed it down to two prime subjects. But first, I'd like to talk about two other subjects that I have eliminated for protection toNight and why.
First off, poor, poor Ui. I didn't know him very well as he was new on the ship, but they put him to death fast. I wasn't comfortable being on it because I actually thought he spoke sense, but unfortuntly that lead to his quick demise. Had he lived he'd be another one vying for my protection toNight and might have even won it due to my thinking he was both Town AND annoying enough to scum to want to get rid of. Also, if what he was saying as any merit at all, it was even more dangerous to them for him to remain alive. I fear this most of all. That people are who they say they are, but not.....themselves.
And secondly, myself. While I wish I'd have enough concentration to just watch out for myself tonight, my concience, at least toNight prevents it. I must use my power to possibly save someone else, otherwise I have not done my best to help out those I believe to be good. Maybe on another Night I will, but toNight two others have more urgent needs, I feel.
One last thing I wish to get down before I get to those two, however. A confession of sorts.
I find myself doubting some pretty strong claims. The person who claimed to be our pilot, Wash--you'd think I'd recognize him on sight--but my mind is blurry. I don't recognize him, and while he very well COULD be our Wash, something just tells me that it's bad to always trust that..but a greater feeling niggles at me.
I distrust the one they call Mr Universe.
More and more it's a feeling to me that he's scum..or rather not scum itself but a person who just can't wait to sell us out to whoever the scum are in this game. To learn all he can about our roles and then, in the event of what happened to UI today, double crossing us and revealing all publically. I hesitate to mention this aloud at the Daily public meetings though in fear of attracting undue pile-ons. What shall I do, diary? What is most right? Will this always just be the only record of what I felt this early on? Will I die with this as the only proof as to what may be the case, not found until long after it's too late?
The Night grows deeper. I can feel it pressing against the windows of the ship.
Two people, I feel, deserve my watching and protection toNight, both for many different reasons. The first, whatthezoe, has claimed to have minor abilities like my own. And while hers aren't quite as honed as mine, I see her as like an apprentice almost. And I believe she is who she says she is.
She'd be dangerous to the Alliance. Someone who has half a chance to block kills, yet, unlike me, not able to watch herself. Very vunerable now that they know this. I'd think they'd want to take her out as quickly as possible to avoid a possible block. If not toNight, then soon.
The other draws me too, though, this one that only gives his name as storyteller so far. I have strong feelings he's Town, even though he hasn't said anything by way of claim yet. And, something in the back of my mind...some PART of me quite possible from another past life I've led makes me remember something called.....tradition? Tradition of killing Story off on Night Twos? And while this isn't really Night Two that it'd still be the same considering it'll be the second Night with a kill for scum?...I don't know..but those are the thoughts that come. I don't understand them myself but nevertheless, it pushes me forward telling me this is something that's a good idea.
But beside that, he seems like an interesting fellow. Good head on his shoulders and smart mind. ToDay he seemed to be taken up mostly arguing with another member over math and stuff but I actually feel that fellow may be on our side too. If this is the case, I fear the baddies among us may kill this Story off just to make the other look bad. Or, if ther is bad anyway, he might kill Story off just so he can rest on the "Please, do you think I'd be stupid enough to kill him, being his biggest voter in the Day?" excuse. Story also is an unknown right now, like myself, and I feel the Alliance would be more apt to try for an unknown than a known, because none of the knows have revealed themselves to be a full blown detective or a full blown Doctor yet. I really hope that latter doesn't have to claim anytime soon either.
So good cases to kill off both whatthezoe and Story. But which one? I cannot be in both places at once so this is always a moral decision that bears great weight on my soul. If I make the wrong choice like I did last night, even if I am not to blame, I rest greatly uneasily.
In the end, diary, I guess what I think is that the baddies are more likely to take a shot in the dark then someone who is verified. Not because they don't like picking off people who are verified, but just because they can hold off on those a little bit longer and try to get bigger, unknown fish. I fear for my own life, of course, but again, nothing ever ventured is nothing ever gained. I may sit alone in a room and watch my own back some other Night. ToNights....I will sit with Story.
It will be a long Night. If I survive it, I fear longer ones are to come.
Simon
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Post by Gir! on Oct 9, 2007 23:23:15 GMT -5
Night 4:
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Post by The Real FCOD on Oct 12, 2007 8:57:42 GMT -5
Dear Diary: Today I was pompous and my sister was crazy. [flips page] Today we were kidnapped by hill folk, never to be seen again. It was the best day ever!
--FCOD
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Post by NAF1138 on Oct 16, 2007 18:35:15 GMT -5
Sent Night 5: Dear Diary,
Well, surprises abounded last Night. The one that they called Mr Universe came to me early the next day in a secret meeting. He caught me as I was coming back from the ship's bathroom and pulled me over to the side and confessed to know who I was. I was aghast, I tell you! For we had voted by majority before any of this happened that we would only talk in the daytime at the daily meetings. Apparently him talking to me outside of these meetings angered the space gods, for immediately a bolt of lightning came down out of nowhere and struck him leavng nothing but a pile of ashes.
It really unnerved me, to say the least, but later I heard through the grapevine that he really was who he always claimed he was. For this, I feel slightly guilty, even though I know in my heart there isn't really anything to feel guilty of. It's just a Doctors persona to feel like he has to save the world, I guess.
But anyway, diary, this really changes things. Really, it does. For this night I was planning to sit in with either the one they call whattheZoe or my beloved Fanny, but with this new gear in the works, it has all of the population of this ship all on edge and not knowing what to think, who to trust, and just creates a large feeling of paranoia all round. I, myself, am no expection.
And so, for this night as well, since Day practically didn't exist at all, I will sit just by myself and watch everywhere.
Tomorrow night, either skinny Fanny or WhattheZoe will get my protection.
Simon
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Post by NAF1138 on Oct 16, 2007 18:35:58 GMT -5
Sent Day 5: Dear diary.
It is not yet Night. I just snuck away from the meeting for a few minutes claiming I needed to dress my wounds some so I could put down some of my thoughts right now and get some important meanderings out.
First of all, my injuries were grave. My left arm is in a sling and I can no longer rescue people like I used to. But with the help of painkillers and oinment, the swelling and hurt has subsided a bit. Plus, I guess I can't complain because everyone saw me lying there on the ground in the morning with my bag by my side. They all know who I am, for sure now. I consider myself very lucky.
But really, what I came to log was some thoughts about toDay and what I'm considering.
Something risky, diary, something very, very risky. Extremely so, actually. Something that, if succeeds or I'm right, it would be so glorious and tremendous. But something that, if fails or I turn out to be wrong, it would make me an outcast to my own team and forever looked down upon. I don't know if I wish to wager it all.
But what is life without risks? It seems to me that the bad guys on this ship have made a living with deceit and lies. That they have the art of making up stories and misleading us down pat. Why should they be on the only clever ones who bullcrap their way through this game? Why can't we, too, lie and make things up based on feelings and vibes?
The only thing is, diary, that again, if I fail or am wrong, this all will come down on me, even being known to all as a good guy now. It would be seen as selfish, anti-town, and even self serving. But that's if it fails.
The weird thing is....if I am right and it all works out, it would be seen later--when everyone learns what I did--as heroic, clever, ingenius even. If it works.
Funny how life is. Funny how people are. If you mess up, they're quick to pin it on you and ask 'how could you do that' but if it works out in their favor they smile and pat you on the back. Sometimes I feel like I just live in a world with nothing but phonies...even those who are on my side. This applies to me too a lot of the time, I am certainly not exempt.
People are just people. I know, how profound, huh, diary? They have flaws and they have weaknesses, but this is what it is to be human. The human condition is just like that and no other place is that apparent then on this ship right now in this deadly game, of sorts, that we're playing.....that when it works out for one team, they love it, but the other hates it. And when it doesn't, they hate you, but the other team thanks the gods that you did that.
This is my weight. I know not what to do, but there is no life worth living without risks.
And so, in the case that I do do this, here it is laid out...so if many years in the future someone finds this diary, they'll know why I did it. And if I don't do it, here it is for me to read in the future, and others too who might say, hopefully "What an ingenious plan".
I ask again, why should scum be the only ones to lie for the good of their team? What of us? I have in mind a plan.
It is very simple actually and it entails just me telling them when I go back to the meeting and sometime before this Day is up that I have one more bit of info that I have been holding back on.
The "bit of info" I'd be talking about and then revealing would be pure fabrication, however. But as you see, that may work to my and my sides advantage.
I have already learned that, when I or someone else that I'm protected is attacked, that I do not learn their identity. But nobody else knows this, least of all the baddies.
What if....
What if.......
What if I told them I could see attackers? But even more so, what if I told them that I'd see the character of anyone who attacked the person I'm protecting at Night and that I have already?
I remember back to Night Three when I protected the one known now as Monty. That following Dawn there was only one kill. What does this mean? Well maybe it means that someone tried to kill Monty and failed and maybe it doesn't but it doesn't matter...I could tell them that someone did try to attack Monty. That whoever I protect, if they're attacked, I'd see the character name running away.
This would open many doors of explainations and possible advantages..five that I know of off hand.
1. It would explain why there was only one kill on Day Four.
2. I could say it was Kaylee that I saw running away. This would explain why/how I was so sure of her being scum after she said what her real name was at that Day's meeting (but that I didn't want to give myself away as how I "knew" that so I just tried to make it seem obvious from how sure I was.
3. Even if it didn't work out that way (I.E. they didn't try to hit Monty that Night or, if so, it wasn't Kaylee that did it), it wouldn't matter because the only people who would know I was lying would be the bad guys themselves. And what are they going to say? "No, that's not how it worked out and I know that because I'm scum"? Ha.
And the possible rewards of it?
Well, therein comes the huge risk. The huge-oh-so-big-"selfish-if-you're-wrong-but-great-if-you're-right"-large-risk that I'm contemplating on taking.
The possible rewards are:
4. Scum maybe not wanting to take their chance on killing me off if I turn out to be right. and most of all...
5. Giving me the power to say someone attacked me the first Night I protected myself (Night Four) and saying it was someone who I strongly suspect as scum, such as the one known only right now as HockeyMonkey or even the one they call.....Wash.
Ahhhh, diary. I shiver with...I don't know what...just writing it out. A mixture of excitement and fear and anticipation in what I am actually thinking I may do.
But it all hinges on if I'm right about Wash or the other. What if I'm not? What if they really are Town? What if Wash is really Wash and hadn't been brainwashed? (A ha. More Doctor humor!)
I am confirmed now. Therefore everyone will believe me if I said all of this and that Wash tried to kill me before. They'll all pile on him with votes and if he's really Alliance, great. But if he's not? Then what? What of it if/when he's revealed to be Wash, vanilla crew?
I'll be known to be a liar. And what's more...a Townie who's a liar. There isn't any more shame than being that. That you let down your own team. That you acted against your own team and got one of your own killed just based on your own selfish, self-satisfying reasons. That you let your suspicions get in the way of doing what was right or good for Town and caused an unneeded death.
That's what it'll be. And I'll deserve it too.
That's what it'll be...
....if I'm wrong.
If I'm right and I do all I've written down here toDay....it would be great.
Oh, diary. I have no idea what to do. What is right or wrong? Is there right and wrong in this world? Or is it all just relative?
I have in my hands a power right now that I could risk a big part of my side on....but if I crap out, the consequences are just as great.
But in any event, I hope this entry is recorded like all the others so that others may read my thoughts if they are ever found.
I still have much thinking to do this Day.
And five days to do it in.
Simon
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Post by storyteller0910 on Oct 16, 2007 22:22:01 GMT -5
Wow, he's got a really ambitious plan there. The first half - pretending he can see who attacked his protection target - is sheer genius. It adds to the scum's paranoia big time. The second half - yeesh. Not so good.
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Post by sachertorte on Oct 17, 2007 14:14:15 GMT -5
I don't get it. Scum will know he's lying and won't be paranoid about anything. All this does is makes the town lynch who Idle Thoughts wants them to.
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Post by storyteller0910 on Oct 17, 2007 14:29:35 GMT -5
I don't get it. Scum will know he's lying and won't be paranoid about anything. All this does is makes the town lynch who Idle Thoughts wants them to. Yes, you're right. Somehow I forgot the crucial fact that the scum would know he was lying. So it's kind of a bad idea all around, then?
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Post by Gir! on Oct 20, 2007 19:29:45 GMT -5
Night 6 diary entry: Dear Diary,
I feel that this will be a very long entry. Perhaps the longest yet, and maybe the longest ever. For all I know, it may also be the last.
So much to write down since my secret entry in the Day during the meeting. The meeting is finally over but my thoughts keep coming. I will try to get them all down in this entry and then let fate take it from there.
First of all, I was the one who told everyone to string up Jubal. Everything she said was weird and seemingly inconsistant...but not only that, it was shockingly coincidental. Too much so for my liking. But, alas, it seems sometimes things do work out that way.
Much like finally finding my sister.
Ah, River!. How I've missed you so. I hope these entries can show the truth in what I cannot, out of safety's sake, show at the meeting...and that is one reason I hope they are found. Because much despite what the people at the meeting were lead to believe, I love and cherish my sister so much. On our side or the Alliance side, I don't care. I must protect her. She hasn't been acting normal lately, but I hope to spend more time with her and hopefully heal her the best I can back to how she used to be. I know not if that can be done, but I must try.
Coming back to my sister later...I wish to jot down where I am in thoughts regarding what my last entry talked about. I have decided....
....I cannot.
I simply cannot be so selfish to risk my own team on my own, personal suspicions. I can not and will not. If Wash and the other really are baddies, then time will tell, without my needing to lie. Because if I am wrong, there is too much that can be lost.
Maybe when all of this is said and done and if it turns out they were what I thought, I can laugh and imagine what would have happened had I done what I was planning, but as for really attempting it, it would be so extremely foolish to just do that based on my thoughts alone. I am not the team. I am a part of a team. I cannot make my own suspicions guide or control me to the point where I must lie and falsely accuse someone who may be innocent. I took an oath to help and save people. To protect them. Lying just based on a "hunch", however good it may be, is unethical. Even though I still feel strongly that they ones I think are baddies really are, I won't lower myself to be the liars they are.
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Diary,
I had not yet finished the last entry, I know, but I put down the pen to think some more on things. As I was meandering and looking out the window into the dark void, a very scary thought scampered it's way across my mind.
Some of the crew has been brainwashed.
No, not THAT. That's not what was very scary. That was already on my mind long ago and has since been confirmed. What the spine-tingling thought that just struck me now was...
...how can we be sure what roles were and weren't?
None of us know save for the brainwashed ones themselves. And they act just like anyone else. Why, nobody would know the difference 'twixt a regular person and a brainwashed one.
Not even if they were....your own brother, you could say.
Oh, diary, a great fear is coming over me. A great sense of dread. A great feeling of things that seemingly make SCARY SENSE when you put them how I'm about to put them.
What if one of the two brothers had been taken? The one still alive?
Picture this,...two brothers. Two brothers who really are Masons. Two brothers who really DO know who each other are. Only one is good and the other is.....brainwashed. And the good one, while knowing who his brother is, obviously, doesn't know, though,that his brother is no longer himself!
But obviously the brainwashed one would know he, himself, was bad and also who his brother was. What bastard gods there would have to be in the heavens for them to do that! I certainly hope it's not the case. But now that the thought has entered my mind I can't escape it. It also put things in a new light that happened at earlier meetings.
Allow me to paint it a bit, diary...
MadMason claims he's a mason. DiggitMason, the other one, knows he's telling the truth (but, again, doesn't know that MM has been taken over by the Alliance), so he stays quiet.
Meanwhile, that first Night...MM who is brainwashed scum, gets with his scum buddies and tells them who his brother is and they all agree to kill him off. Come the morning, DM is found dead, we are left wondering how scum knew that he was the other brother, and MM comes out smelling like a rose in full bloom.
OH DIARY! WHAT HORRIBLE THOUGHTS. This could not possibly be true, could it? We could not have such bastard gods watching over us and running us that are this way?
But man does it really fit. How the scum knew DM was the other one, why they killed him off, and an excellent place for scum to be, in just about a confirmed status.
I don't know what to think about this. It could be. It could not be. It's a far stretch, yeah, but I also feel it's something that should not be just be discounted. Not forgotten. I've always prided myself in thinking of every possible scenerio..and this is one. An ugly one, but one nonetheless.
But no matter what I think, I feel it's too crazy, at least right now, to entertain at the daily meetings. Besides; I don't even know if I will live past this Night. I certainly am not going to be watching over myself. That person I decided long ago.
However next I'd like to log, at least, my thoughts on a person I will not be protecting toNight although someone who is certainly a GOOD choice. In fact, if I wasn't protecting the person I will be toNight, I'd be protecting this one for sure.
Yes, that's right.
My beloved Fanny.
I believe she is, around this time, a HUGE risk to the baddies. I feel it's in their best interest to start thinking about getting rid of her. I think they may toNight, actually, for the pool of players who could be Mingo grows smaller every Day and Night. I think she is the best choice for scum to kill off toNight. I feel she may be.
However,....I cannot protect her. I want to. But it comes down to two people. I wish I could protect both, but I can't. Both of them deserve protection, but for me, the choice is made easy due to my own bias and love.
I am a Doctor.
But...
I am also a brother.
I know not where my sister's true loyalty lies..but I like to think, deep down there somewhere, they lie with what is right.
True, she killed me. And true I would be dead now if I wasn't recesitated. But it doesn't matter. She is my sister. I must look out for her. I must take care of her. Even if she is brainwashed, I feel I can help her. Somehow. Someway. If she is for the good, deep down, then she deserves my protection as much as anyone. And if she is brainwashed, well, maybe a Night of my help will actually change her or turn her fully around.
Even if not, though.....my answer would be the same.
I must watch over my sister. I must watch over and do what I can to protect River Tam.
And now, I must get to her room since the Night is deepening. Are those screams I hear in the distance, in another part of the ship? Or is it just my imagination and lack of sleep? Will they be coming for my sister? Or maybe going for Fanny?.
Maybe they'll be going for my own throat as I stand vigil over my sister. But if that's meant to be, at least I'll be going protecting my true blood.
I hope I can, too, if they try for her. I hope this arm in a sling won't hinder my ablities and make me wind up losing her if she does get attacked. It's a possibility. I just have to take the chances.
In any case, the end drawth nigh.
Pearly gates? Will you be opening wide tonight for my own? Or even my own self?
If this diary ends here, it was the case.
Simon
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Post by Gir! on Oct 24, 2007 22:57:03 GMT -5
Night 7's entry:
Later durring Day 7 he sent this:
Don't feel either of you have to correct my errors in the game. I know they're wrong.
I'm lying on purpose.
I know the other 50 percent Doc is not picked UNTIL/UNLESS I die and not before (because this is what NAF said), but I'm making it sound like there already is a 3rd Doc in the game so that if any scum is tempted to claim it, I'll know they're lying. It will be at that time that I'll just say "Ohh..one last thing...that Doc isn't activated until my death. So you cannot be it."
Haha, just letting you guys know. I do know the correct terms....I'm saying something else on purpose.
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Post by Gir! on Nov 1, 2007 17:19:41 GMT -5
Night 8 PM: Dear Diary,
Well, it is Halloween and the ghosts are out toNight. And what many ghosts there are. I see the spirits of my dead crewmates in my mind and when I close my eyes. They hold their hands out to me, pleading, asking for deliverance, for vengence.
Or maybe it's just my own soul that needs it. To be set free. I just hope these are not shadows of omen and bad things to come. Every Night I fear will be my last. Every Dawn that comes that I see again I'm amazed at.
The ghosts are closing in now. Maybe they'll help point the way for me.
...or maybe they're here to take me away with them toNight.
I cannot sleep again...I must go to my sisters room and protect her.
Ah, my dear sister....I'm sorry if I've failed you. Either if I do toNight or in the future or if I have already. For all I know you have already been taken by the enemy team and are my adversary in this game...but love is stronger than war.
In the end, it's all pointless anyway because if I'm ever taken from this life, I know there's another out there taking my place.
So with the rest of my doing, I will protect you always.
Maybe someday you'll find this and read it. And then maybe you'll tear up at a brother's devotion or maybe you'll laugh at how you pulled one over my eyes all that time and how I was so stupid, but I just hope you realize: I don't care if it's either. Even if I knew it was the latter, I'd still protect you.
Simon
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Post by NAF1138 on Nov 7, 2007 15:10:15 GMT -5
Night 9 PM:
Dear Diary,
Need....sleep....
....can't.....hardly....sta....a...wape....
..no.. ...no.....
...must...staw aw.....awa...
....must....protec...t.........watch..over.......self....
Man...I hope my tiredness...doesn't mate....mate........ ..make..me fail.
Somin
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